How do I cope with boredom? I don’t mean being bored on a Sunday night or feeling bored while I’m watching my kid’s soccer game. I mean the boredom of midlife. I go to work, go to my kids’ activities, and try to manage things at my house. But I feel bored to tears about life in general. Every week looks the same. I’m surrounded by other parents who plaster on fake smiles and brag about the new windows they just got installed. My marriage is fine and family is OK but I feel like at this point, I’m just passing time until I die. Do I just lack mental strength? Am I just a boring person? Do I accept that life is supposed to be boring at this stage? Or is there something wrong with me?
My husband travels for work a lot and I don't hear much from him when he's out of town. I often start questioning if he's cheating on me. I worry I'm not attractive enough or fun enough for him. I looked through his phone once when he was in the shower and he caught me and was mad. When he's away, I ask questions about what he's doing and I sometimes stalk his coworkers social media profiles so I can see what's going on. I don't really think he's cheating but my worries get the best of me when he's gone. How do I stop being so jealous and insecure?
I feel a little like a chameleon sometimes. I'm funny with one person and serious with another. Or I laugh about my mistakes with one group of friends but with other people I try to impress them by acting like I'm perfect. I don't know why I change so much depending on the people around me but I don't like that about myself and I don't even know which one is the real me. What do I do?